Pregnancy/Motherhood

Since this is one of my journals I now have, I wanted to share my thoughts and feelings about pregnancy and motherhood. This is my second pregnancy and I am 33 weeks along now (which is 8 months). The beginning of the pregnancy was really really rough for me. I was very ill all the time with morning sickness and I lost 3 pounds (which for me is a lot of weight). I had to go in for a colonoscopy at 3 months pregnant to make sure I wasn't having serious issues. It was a tough time. I was never like that with Kingston. Finally at around 14 weeks, the sun came out and I felt GOOD. I could eat what I wanted and when I wanted without the urge to expell it, and I started gaining weight. It wasn't until my 20 week ultrasound when I found out the gender, that being pregnant, really hit me. I was so absorbed in already being a wife to Chez and busy mother to Kingston that I didnt constantly think or obsess about the little life growing inside of me. When the ultrasound technician told us it was a girl, all of the sudden everything changed. I had no idea I would be that excited. I was indifferent on wanting a boy or girl originally and I thought either would be great. Knowing we will have a little girl in the mix makes me pretty excited for what is to come. So here I am with just a few short weeks left before I give birth to this little girl and I am feeling so good. Granted I am growing rather large in size due to how big she is, yet I still have SO much energy to constantly clean, look after Kingston, travel, and do fun things as a family. In fact, we are going to Yellowstone next weekend. Being a mommy seriously brings the greatest rewards in life. Knowing that you are the one responsible for your happy, healthy children is a feeling nobody knows until they have their own children. Before I had Kingston, I must admit that I was easily annoyed by other children I would see at grocery stores or restaurants when they were acting up or throwing fits. I was even pregnant with Kingston when I still had those feelings and I was scared to death that I wouldn't know how to handle my own child. It is completely and 100% different though. Kingston has a tendancy at his age to throw some nasty fits and in public. I do get irritated but not in the same way I did when watching other kids. Chez always says to teach with love and that is one thing I have learned to do. I truly love being a mom and I am excited to welcome this new baby girl into our lives!